I Sleep A lot

I sleep a lot. I graze through the kitchen. I hold my husband's hand. I try to find a comfortable position for my head, which is heavy on my hurting neck. I sit and stare at the walls or out of the window. I sip decaf coffee. I am waiting for the next surgery. July 9th. I am waiting for July 9th. There is no doubt that July 9th is years away.

Heart Warming Joy

Joy comes in all kinds of configurations, from a son who drives 7 hours to be by your side during surgery, to a son who brings tacos and grandchildren after work when you get home, a sister who comes in the middle of the night to sleep with you in the hospital, a brother-in-law who brings said sister. Daughters-in-law who check on you, check on you, check on you. Friends who come by, call, or email their support and prayers. My husband, who has been beside me every waking minute since this nightmare started. I couldn't be more blessed, I have the most wonderful people in my life, helping me, willing me to get better, watching out for me. Thank you, guys.

Miracles

After the terrible car accident, I was flown to a nearby trauma center.  A CT scan was done of my head, neck, and chest, which I was sure was crushed.  But no, no breaks or punctures from the crash.  Instead, as a "secondary finding", there were one or two aneurysms in my brain. 

W H A T ? ?

Anyway, it turns out there are four.  The largest one has already been repaired by a procedure called coiling.  This surgery is a miracle.  The thought of the procedure is scary, people poking wires around in your brain; but in reality, for the patient, it's only a 24 hour stay in the hospital, a small incision in the groin, a few bruises, and lots of soreness in the neck.  For the surgeon, it's years of specialized training, and nerves of steel.  I have an excellent, kind, talented surgeon.   

The second largest one will be repaired in a few weeks, and the other two will be watched. The successful repair of the first aneurysm has given me confidence. 

I would never have known about this life threatening condition except for the accident.  I  was given the opportunity to take preventive action, and that is some kind of miracle!  I am thankful and optimistic.

Lock Down

My world is in lockdown....there was a terrible car accident.  A manic driver struck us from behind and sent us flying through the air, rolling and skidding down the interstate highway, over the embankment.  We are only alive because we were driving a new car with a five star crash rating. Today, almost two weeks after "it", I can finally lift my arms level with my shoulders, I can cough without crying, I can lay down and sit back up without an audible moan.  My husband's many cuts are scabbing over, his bruises are turning from purple to green.  We are lucky, so so lucky.
If you are an aggressive driver, if you are an impatient driver, if you honk at slow to move cars, if you have touches of road rage, if you weave in and out of traffic, STOP!  You are not just holding a steering wheel in your hands, you are holding the lives of everyone else on the road with you.  Do you really want to kill someone to save a few minutes?  What if that someone isn't a pokey driver, what if it's a child?  Don't think it isn't possible.  Don't think it won't happen to you.